Kau Di Mana

 

 

KAU DIMANA
By Atiek CB

Ketika hari turun senja
Ketika rembulan pun tiba
Kau ada di mana
Kau berada di mana

Ketika malam pun berwarna
Dan yang lainnya pun berdansa
Kau ada di mana
Kau berada di mana

Reff:
Mungkin diriku tak ada artinya
Tapi kuingin sampaikan
Kuharap kau di sisiku
Bila hatiku merindu
Tapi kau tak kan pernah tiba jua

Kala hatiku pecah dua
Air mata terjatuh sudah
Kau ada di mana
Kau berada di mana

Still remember the above song? If I am not mistaken the song was popular in the last years of the 20th century.in Indonesia. When I felt broken-hearted, I used to sing this song, in that era of course. 

Time has healed my broken-heartedness. 

However, in fact when I heard the particular person’s name, who used to make me sing this song, was mentioned again, I remember the deep hurt inside my heart. The first line of the refrain thrust a very sharp blade into my heart: a woman is not important, a woman’s feeling is not necessary to be understood, a woman must always be submissive.

This patriarchal culture did hurt me very deeply.

My background (in education, religion, anything) did shape me to be a submissive creature. My rebellious nature and my own extensive reading of more various subjects in my adult life have successfully made me reborn to be a different creature. 

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